Discovery & Perfection

So much of what I do is based on what I know  or  what  I think I know. How I think things should be, because I have either seen it or heard about it. Regardless, I want to make the ‘right’ decisions at all times.

Why?

I want to be perfect.

I want to be able to say ‘I got that right the first time’! I wonder if I ever get anything right the first time. I wish I understood this idea of reaching, wanting ‘perfection’ earlier. I might have avoided a lot of conflicts, disappointments, anger and pain!

Perfection - I think, is not a destination. It’s a work-in-progress based on the conditions that exist in the moment. Almost everything I do (in my world of experiential education) is influenced by Place, Purpose, Props, People and Punctuation (,.;). Every one of these has a ‘pause’ in it. Some longer than others. If its true that everything (all the P’s) change, then everything I have done at any time must have reached a degree of Perfection - in that moment.

Maybe the question is - how do find a place in my head for the idea that Perfection moves; that every attempt at getting anything right is absolutely RIGHT for the moment! The only way to get it better is to accept that if I am purposeful in the moment, and wanting to do a great job at whatever, there is always a degree of risk. Perfection and Risk are buddies.

They find each other whenever I want to get anything right. Perfection sits in the ‘I know’ box in my brain. I know what i want. ‘Risk’ sits in the ‘I don’t know’ box – i don’t know if what i want will happen the way i have imagined it.

I also found that when I take the leap to risk something, I achieve a degree of excellence that didn’t exist before. I discover a new way of feeling, thinking, doing and Being. It’s a new world - even if it’s in small discoveries and experiences.

When I seek perfection, fear finds me.

When I choose discovery, anticipation and excitement appear!

In seeking perfection is a practice of old ways.

In following exploration is some discomfort, and eventually movement from the old place.

What is your relationship with Perfection?